AFTEREFFECT

When you have fulfilled your destiny spiritually, when you have awakened, you find suddenly an increased awareness of time passing, which has an ominous feel to it.  Every sunrise feels now like the last one, every sunset the final one too. 

As well, time passes faster seemingly, in a time compression.  You feel like you are on a train that is speeding ever faster down the track, and it is heading straight for a precipice, a drop off in the dark distance which looks to be upon you in another hour, or is it in another minute?  The train's fate is your fate.

Alas, though, you are not going to go over that precipice because you are already over it.  You are not your mind any longer.