WHEN NOTHING ELSE WILL DO

The primary symptom of spirituality, that a person is, so to speak, coming down with spirituality, is his inability suddenly to feel comfortable in the world.  He squirms and fidgets, and is like a dog running in circles trying to find a spot that he can lie down in without having to get up again. 

Something is trying to get his attention.  He does not see yet that it is spirituality. He just knows that he is not the way he was, that he is out of whack somehow. 

It is not uncommon for a person to be in this state his entire life, and even for many lifetimes.  Spirituality manifests itself slowly. 

Others may notice the person struggling before he does.  He is irritable, and increasingly antisocial; he keeps to himself, as though he were a monk, which in fact is what he is.

All the spiritual books he has read, and the parade of internet lectures by spiritual teachers he has watched, now no longer interest him.  The reason is because they are not IT, or are no longer IT, as he once thought they were.  Nothing else will do now, which is when spirituality, God, the real IT, awakens in him.